Ups and Downs, Highs and Lows

I am often amazed at how manic my posts are and how they must look to everyone. One day, I'm riding high and all is good, it's good to be Phil. Then other days I look like I'm ready to go postal or something. I used to be on a more even keel before the cancer (I was just postal ;-) It's probably rather normal to feel like this, as a matter of fact, I know it is because of other cancer folk I've spoken to at Gilda's. Plus most people have good days and bad days. I just think it gets exaggerated due to the medication and the severity of my situation. I feel pretty good today, this week I go for chemo on Tuesday instead of Wednesday (too many cancer people in on Wednesday so they moved my appointment). I don't know if it's good or bad, it's the treatment that will screw up my digestive system for about 4-5 days, I really loathe these treatments in particular. Just a general health update here. My rash is getting a little better on my chest and back, but my face still hurts (I know, it's killing you) from the rash. The skin on my fingers seems to have stopped spliting for now. The skin on my feet is now spliting. My feet and toes are still numb, they feel furry. My sides still hurt and my stomach muscles seem to be sorer. I haven't kayaked in about 3 weeks. I like to think it's because of the heat, but I think I'm just tired. I still swim pretty much everyday. Other than that, I feel great!
I hug my wife and kids everyday....