Update...

How do I start? I've been blogging a while, a little over a year, but I've had cancer longer. About two years and I've been married much longer than that, seventeen years in October. I bitch about all of these. This really isn't the forum for marrige woes but since I've posted them, I thought I'd also mention that I asked Dana to go to therapy with me and she accepted. We went the other day and it was a postive experience. It wasn't a finger pointing session which was good because it shouldn't be but it was a chance to clear the aire, voice our issues, and start to figure out how to get both of our needs met as much as possible. My therapist is real good. I feel she's helped me a lot over the past year I've been going to her. Dana's noticed a change in me as have I. So now we're changing things and it's been a big improvement.

I think anyone who's been in a relationship knows that they do take work, but they are priceless.

Side note - I go for a CT scan tomorrow. then we go to the Cape of Cod for a week (I get to skip chemo) then I'll get the results the following Monday.
Have a great week everyone

W A I T . . .

I'm here today for my 70th(?) treatment. I've lost count but I know it's around there somewhere. I got here at my usual 7:30 am and since today is my single dose day, I should have been out of here by 10 10:30 but instead, I have to see the dermatologist because my toes are all screwed up (again). She must be the only one in the entire city because there is always a wait. It's after 12 now and it's about 95 degrees outside. I should be home swimming but I'm not, not even close. My toes really have gotten bad over the past few weeks, this has been going on since the winter. I spent most of the winter wearing sandals as I still am doing now. My hands, mostly my fingers, and the heels of my feet are splitting quite badly. I started using a liquid bandage to help seal the gaps. It seems to help or at least help it from getting worse.
I wish I'd get the fuck in the office already!!!

An Interesting Week Ahead

Today is Saturday, July 8th. It's a nice hot day, I'm poolside on the laptop. I may wind up running a line from the DSL line to the outside. It's wireless, but for seem reason it's flaky here. I was able to connect from my hospital lasat week when I went for chemo. I brought my web cam so I did a little filming. I was trying to connect with the folks at home but it didn't happen. My wife and kids are headed down to the Jersy Shore this week. Dana's Uncle Jack is renting two houses down there, one for his side of the family and one for Dana's side. Her uncle and her Mom are brother and sister. So, if everyone goes with their little kids there is the potential for 45 people being down there. Dana's family is very nice, I get along with them but spending a week there would be rather difficult if I felt good but this week coming up is my dreaded double dose week so I think I'm getting a pardon from the governor so I won't be going. I really would like to go for a few days but I'll be busy puking and either shitting or not (still not sure which is worse. The asshole is the boss of the human body though (and how). If it's not working everything else shuts down. I'm not even going to start to feel better until sometime Thursday. We are headed for a vacation to Cape Cod in afew weeks so I can wait for that. Also that is going to be coming off a good week. I will be having a CT Scan the Friday before I go so I should be nice and distracted so I won't worry about the results until after I get back. I kind of want to get into other stuff here but I'm not sure I will now. It's basically the same shit, different day. Let me say this. We took 7 kids, only two are ours and two were these girls that Dylan has been hanging around with, to the movies to see Pirates of the Carribean, and I paid for everything. I loved doing it, we were the cool parents. Someone else wasn't as thrilled about it as I was. Life's short, too short. Enjoy it.
~see, same shit, different day
PS: I don't know what posessed me, but I asked Dana if she would go to couseling with me. I asked her my place or hers (meaning therapists) We will go to mine. We're stuck big time. There is the cancer stuff and the normal marriage stuff. We'll start that next week. Let the fun begin.
Today already I've had to deal with a bunch of computer related stuff. I can't believe how much they fuck that machine up.